High Hopes

Lately I have felt very disjointed with my children, especially Levi.  I had no idea just how much things would change once Parker was born.  Levi had been bottle fed, due to lack of supply on my part.  It worked out well enough, as he was able to bond with his daddy and me in the same way.  Levi and I were a team and just absolutely in love.  Try as we might, there really is no way to prepare a child for the arrival of a new baby and with Levi's hyperactive personality, we had to limit his time playing with his new little brother.  Parker is also breastfed.  The time spent with Parker is wonderful, but my relationship and closeness to Levi has suffered greatly.  I'm often short tempered, frustrated and just "too busy" and I really hope that i can overcome this.  My greatest hope is that I can find a way to become a happy, carefree and most importantly, a fun mom.  I'm going to set up challenges for myself and my family in hopes of growing closer together.  Both my boys deserve it.